While I was sitting quietly in the car, I was quite stunned by myself... And then this image of a girl suddenly emerged from my head like a wind or lightning some sort... So, here it goes. Hope you enjoy... ^^
Angel oh Angel...
I was fifth grade and well, my best buddies, Sebastian got the best of me in getting more influences to Danielle, so I was quite a bit disappointed by that. So, I set a new course. Find and search another girl, and hopefully she would be my first love. (But then, crush is crush rite? Like them and yet forgotten) And here we go. I found another one, in a rather unpredictable place. Okay, here's the clue: It's a blessing by God...
It was every Catholics fifth grader's dream to received their first Communion, and from there, we had to go through series of Sunday classes in order to fully understand what it's meant to be one of God's children, and from there, understanding how it's great and worth it to be one of God's follower. And then, one Sunday morning, me and Sebastian (we're at the same Sunday class) sitting at the same table, chatting and laughing while our Sunday school teacher taught something at the front. And then, my left vision was like there's a small flowers at the end of it. I was like, "What's happening to my vision?" (I wanted to swear, but you guys know that I'm learning about God. So, no swearing, Darren...) And then when I looked my left side, there she is: simply flawless... It's the situations when you looked at her and say, "Beautiful Christ, she's an angel..." *saliva dripping.... ewwww.....!!! Let's call her, Ivy
The next Sunday, I've made my homework. Trying to established an 'inside girl' to provide me information about her. Who she is? Where she's live? What's her favorite songs? Favorite movies? Color that she likes the most? etc etc... (At this point you might wanna call me a stalker, but everyone did right?). But there's one things that I can't do, and yet still haunts me till today. I CAN'T EVEN SPEAK TO HER FACE-TO-FACE! Girls, if you read this, you probably think I'm stupid, because guy was supposed to have a sense of brave and just admit his feelings to the girl that he likes, but I gotta tell you, girls. That's a hard things to do, even to admit his feelings to someone he likes... Really! Even for a guys standard, it's really a hard things to do...
Back to the stories, I kinda lost my voice whenever I wanna talk to her, and when I regained my voice, she's 1.5km away from where I'm standing. And I was cracked... and then cracked again.... and then, *sitting at the dark corner, duduk mencangkung, muram dengan api-api roh kat belakang saya.
But then as time goes on, and my last class before first Communion started, I was lost in words, lost in my worlds. Wondering how am I supposed to go through this? Am I gonna be seeing with her again? Am I'll be missing her? Will I get the chance to be with her, even if I'll have only 1% of chances that I'm gonna be with her? I don't have one single idea about that...
And then when the time I don't really expect the most, she's gone........
And there goes my chance... *sigh
But then, one years later, when I'm attending my sister's first Communion, a figure showed up from afar. Long silk hair, sleeveless top, cream-coloured pants, and from her face, I was like OMG! She's there... That girl I had crush on last year! And there she is... There and waiting for me to take a move. But then, as I was plundering for some courage just to speak to her, she's gone... Again... And this time, it's forever.... As devastated I am that time, well thank God that another fragments of memories just flashing through my mind. Because as far as I'm concerned, if this happened, my life wouldn't be like this. I just knew that...
And what I heard right now, she's currently studying somewhere at Selangor, a part-time model, and she had met Jimmy Choo. Yes that Jimmy who had designed some high-standard shoes... Weird huh? For me to have a crush on a future supermodel...
So, Ivy whether you read this, or not... (of course you don't read this) I just wanna say thank you... Thank you for not being my first girlfriend. For me to find another suitable one to be my first love. For me to show that from something that God has planned, there comes the possibilities to find someone who I might will spend fr the rest of my life... Thank you for that... :)
And then when the time I don't really expect the most, she's gone........
And there goes my chance... *sigh
But then, one years later, when I'm attending my sister's first Communion, a figure showed up from afar. Long silk hair, sleeveless top, cream-coloured pants, and from her face, I was like OMG! She's there... That girl I had crush on last year! And there she is... There and waiting for me to take a move. But then, as I was plundering for some courage just to speak to her, she's gone... Again... And this time, it's forever.... As devastated I am that time, well thank God that another fragments of memories just flashing through my mind. Because as far as I'm concerned, if this happened, my life wouldn't be like this. I just knew that...
And what I heard right now, she's currently studying somewhere at Selangor, a part-time model, and she had met Jimmy Choo. Yes that Jimmy who had designed some high-standard shoes... Weird huh? For me to have a crush on a future supermodel...
So, Ivy whether you read this, or not... (of course you don't read this) I just wanna say thank you... Thank you for not being my first girlfriend. For me to find another suitable one to be my first love. For me to show that from something that God has planned, there comes the possibilities to find someone who I might will spend fr the rest of my life... Thank you for that... :)
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So with that, all of my crushes I had telling you guys and bloggers before my first love come one years later... And that, my friend, is my Miss That-Special-Someone... But I can assure you. 'Awksome Adventure' will stay for you guys! So, goodnight...
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