A lot of my friends asked whether I could share some experiences having a first crush, and yeah.... We do have our first crush, literally. And of course like what this title says, it's really awkward to tell, but despite all my friends demand for it, here it goes. My friend, this one is for you:
My First Awksome Crush!
It started during the Third Grade where I found this beautiful, pretty, cute, that everytime when she saw you and smiled, you'll get some butterflies in your stomach... Yeah, that sort of feelings that you thinking right now. Pretty much she was flawless that time, with her cute smile, her glasses, long silky black hair that extended to her bra back strap (It feels so awkward to type that. Seriously... But you get the point, right?) and did I mentioned that she is the only girl that is l saw like in HD while others were like lower than SD, blurry all those and I said to myself like "Wow! If only she could...." and dot dot dot...bla bla bla... all those imaginations from my head like I'm about to get her. Well it doesn't... Owh yeah, I forgot to tell her name. Well, since she still doesn't know that I used to liked her, and we're currently friends AND I prefer have her name to be censored and unknown to public, in case something would be terribly wrong... Let's call her 'Cher' , Miss That-First-Crush :)
Apparently Cher is any like other normal girls that time. Hanging around with her pals, going to the canteens and every guys are looking at her and there goes saliva dripping down to their sandwiches... eeewwwww....! But I'm also one of them. Eewwww..... Shame on me... Okay, back to the story. Just like what I said, she's so mesmerizing that when I saw her right to my ways, I'm gonna hurry took a book from my 50 poun bag and read it to avoid any eye contact with her. (My weakness?) Plus I wanna look smart in front of her, although I'm not, but that's the best I could do, right...? And then when she was in front of me she asked what am I reading? And I answered with cool and yet cracked voice, "English..."
She was pointing at the book and then she was giggling. In my mind I was like 'Am I making a fool of myself... I know I'm a foolish myself, but there must be something obvious that made her laugh...' and I was looking slowly at my book that I held on my hand, slowly, hoping that I didn't do something stupid... just a teeny wenie tibby tiddy doo look and *sigh... a sigh of relieve. But then as I looked nervously on the book cover, there it is. A BIG BOLD WORD of 'MY BIODATA' full of stars and panda stickers all over my cover book. And I was like numb, crows flying all over my head, three huge dots like in anime and in my brains, EXPLOSIONS.... Not a good memories from a third grade boy, I tell you. But then she picked my biodata, looked through it and she said she'll give it back few classes later because she would loved to write all about herself in that book. I was still numb that time, but in my head, UNICORNS all over St. Joseph that time. And I was like da da da di ri dum.... da ra da da! (lagu tema Choki-Choki keluar XP). I was smiling broadly all day long after that. Triple the ride when I saw her biodata in my book, all glittering and shiny... Even the scent smells so good.
June, third grade, my class was having some sort like an table arrangement and we were facing face to face on both opposite sites of wall. And I was still can't get my eyes fixed on her. Damn she was so mesmering till I can't make an eye contact with her... I crossed my finger, hoping that she would sit next to me and was hoping like "God, please let me sit besides her.... Please please please please please please please please please please.....". And then when the teacher called my name, I was so freaking nervous that I might wanna bite my nails to pieces. And then she said, "Darren?" "Y-y-ye-yeah...?" *cracking voice.... "You sit there, at that row..." "Owh... O-Okay..." and I closed my eyes, making myself some sort of a surprise and then.... dun! dun! dun! A girl sitting next to me.... But unfortunately not Cher, but someone else... And I was like numb cramped boy with jammed mind, I don't even know what to think about. All because my hope was shattered to pieces and I was left with someone else (though she's sweet, but I want Cher!) and I was left disappointed and the wind blow awkwardly on my back... Plus you could see souls all over me... Nah, just a metaphore only. Wanna make things straight. I'm really disappointed...
Now, between me and Cher? I'm proud to say we're an old friend already... 10 years of surviving friendship is truly an achievement. And secrets about she's my first crush? Yeap, it's still a secret until she'll figured out about this. And I hope she still haven't discover about this. not until I have the courage to tell this to her...
That's all guys... Goodnight!
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Bro-fist! XOXOD
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