I Walk Alone....

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-skema alu-

I know for the last few days since my last update, I've been wandering alone, going away from home more frequently than I used to be, and there's the reasons behind all those... I figuring out hard and deep what's happening to me. *sigh, emo this, emo that, this and that, all those... And I can't figure out why? Because of Xanne, because of my former ex's, or might be someone else? Owh geez....

But then, here we are... Cold, hard, cruel, and zombie life of mine. Aimless, no goal, no achievements, all those... Going down to the streets with my black hooded jacket, walking away and passing peoples, ignoring what are they doing. Saw a guy at the side of the streets, sitting with a plastic cup in front of him.... Grabbing some one ringgits at my wallet and with a simple smile, I put those money into that old plastic cups and slowly fading away.

Continuing my ways, I found out that lane... The lane where I used to go whenever I felt so depressed, so lonely, so alone, and that lane is so bright, so colourful I can see why people, old and young see this lane and tell themselves, saying this lane, this streets is simply beautiful...

Not a words could describe it....

I guess this will ease me off for a moment.... And till I wear this black hooded jackets, it shows that I'm  still alone, lonely, and somehow can't find any trust in this situations. I know that there's someone who's there to back me up, forgetting what's wrong, never regret the past and just keep moving on, fixing the present and cherish the future... There might be some points at there, but fixing the present? I don't know... Seems too hard to be swallow in and endure it... But when I think it back, there's no use fixing those again... She's away, I'm broken and when I said I wanna move on, that's mean forgetting her, treat her no more than a friend, and consider myself in the friendzone with her. No more sick emo status, no more shits and smile...

Until now, I can just pray, hoping that the quotes 'time will heal' is more than just a quote, and keep moving. Wake up, Darren... You still young, hard and great as who you are! God gives you the bad part, so that's mean the good part will come. Just stop and stare, wait for it and all you cried of, all what you stand for will come... Just timing, Darren.... Just timing... XOXOD