WATCH IT BEGIN AGAIN...
Quite different, huh? Yeah... I admit I've been a little bit emo since last few days, and mostly all of you guys who has befriend with me on Facebook saw the melancholic side of me, where i posted something more less like emo status. And yeah, i do have reasons for all of this...
See, for the last few blog updates I had been motivating, be the 'tissue', tear-wiper, listener and mostly persuaded her to move on. I know that most of my blog reader knows her whether in reality or in this blog, and if you are, just keep it by yourself, okay? By the way, on my last few blogs, 'She Deserves It...' sad to said that the ending is not what i'm expected... But hey, at least she had moved on with her life, enjoying her single status but still, i believe that she still hoping and expecting another second chance. Just not so high than the last one, as far as i'm concerned...
Me? I thought i could move on and create a new series, a new masterpiece,a new novel of my life with the one i called her, Xanne... An endless ego, no love confession between me and Xanne although we share a same fondness with each other, long distance relationship, and here we go... Backstabbed by her, stole by the third guy, and finally in heart-breaking situation, I gave the third guy Xanne... And at that precise moment, another part of me is just breaking down to a point that I ask myself: Why? Why all of this happen to me? Every girls that i've met seems to find the same ending.... Ending with the third guy.... Why? Why world despised me so much, that I just can't experience what other teenagers felt of? I'm just a fragile, a side cast, a guy whose his destiny is to give away what he created to another one, including LOVE.... :'(
Somehow, she, not Xanne but the one I had convinced her to move on, came and comfort me. Persuading and motivating me to move on, since my last relationship with Xanne can't be saved. She said she's got my back, and said that i could count on her... And I have to admit, I cried besides a girl for a girl... Geez, can't believe that I typed that....
I don't believe in Karma, but i believe that what comes around, will go around. Whether I had bring her a shimmering light to move on and let the past be a memories to live on, or something i never realised i had done, at the end she's the one who comfort me, give me strength to move on and get a new life, and frequently tell myself to look at the bright side, saying that she's the one who lost a guy that are so good that he just gave another pieces of him to someone else, just to see that his girl are happy, even when that girl is in someone else care... *sigh
Right now, being single might be the best alternative for now. And I wanted to enjoy this SINGLE status to it's fullest. But amidst of those status, one thing that catch my eyes sets me to go for her... Whether to take a chance on her or not, let God decides when... Because I still believe in this circumstances, there is still happy endings. Just not the way I expect it to be. Plus, this is just some twist and sad parts of my life. I mean, how could a story so great, so epic, so lovely would come without some twist in the story, right?
Now, as long as she's at there by me; I think I'll can escape from this misery and move on... Forget about her, Darren; Xanne don't deserve you. Because something that is worth having surely is worth waiting for. What I'm going to do next, just stay tuned and wait for my next update. Right now just KEEP CALM AND BE A GENTLEMEN.... XOXOD
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