Too much fight, too much tears, too much cry, silently screaming and now she get what she's cry for so long... A second chance. Although pain struck everytime i type this, the truth is she deserves it. Why the heck im typing this? Well, ive been by her side ever since she had her heart broke into two, or million pieces... Which 'she' im referring about? Let's just keep that a secret, and if u did, just let it shut....
Truth to be told, hardly any girls would want to cry by my side, and zap.... Instantly, she express all her sadness, sorrow and pain towards me. Its too damn hard to said at least. I mean a girl that you used to love so much, now spilling her tears at my shirt for another guy.... Argh, geez! This is so like Twilight! Damn it!
But still i gave her advices on how to reconnect him back. And she seems so desperate... I gave what i know about relationship. Even if im not so good in relationship, in reality i know just anything about guy. Of what they felt, of how they define trust, loyalty, and mutual respect... And so i did. Encouraging and motivating her to move on and see on the bright side seems so painful, yet relieving as well... And she did. In fact, i really admire her spirit and will to forget the pain, sufferings and tears, but she still cant forget the one she held dear the most. So, i made my absolution. Im gonna support her whenever i can. Even when i had to sacrifice half of my heart, just to see them both happy in each others arm... A huge sacrifice, a huge meaning, and yet a huge step for me to get over her again... But really what Gavin DeGraw's song, Not Over You quotes...:
If you ask me how I'm doing
I would say I'm doing just fine
I would lie and say that you're not on my mind
But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two
And finally I'm forced to face the truth,
No matter what I say I'm not over you, not over you
I would say I'm doing just fine
I would lie and say that you're not on my mind
But I go out and I sit down at a table set for two
And finally I'm forced to face the truth,
No matter what I say I'm not over you, not over you
No matter how i said ive done with her, no matter i said im over her right now, still i just cant stare her eyes... Dont know how, dont know why, but seems her eyes is pretty 'catchy'... Argh damn it! I reveal my biggest weakness....!
By the ways, seems like her man finally message her once more. Even just a simple message she showed me from her man, but still its a sign. A positive sign of another second chance... Me? Im just a simple guy, with a complicated mind and feeling, playing a side roll in this series of their love-life novel, giving the aid and motivating the heroine, wiping the tears, and motivating her to stay confident for her loved one, and yet here i am. A side character, waiting to be left in memories... And yes, im waiting for the happy ending for them both, even ive to give myself out... But still, it was a worth... Worth giving myself out of their relationship, to create a new series, to create a new novel of life, to create a new masterpiece that could determine how the happy ending should be... For God is my Stephenie Meyer's life. Because He is the greatest author of my life... Let it be according to His way. I only pray that the last one, whether her or other else, might be the perfect girl ive ever met for my entire life....
She? She deserves to have the second chance. He? He deserves to get her by his side, as long as they love each other. Me? I deserves to leave behind memories for them and write a new novel of me and someone whom God wants me to be... :') XOXOD.... *sigh
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