50 Confessions Why I Love Her =>

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Now, as I'm going through my oath of 'No Girlfriend for 3 Months', I was busying myself with tonnes of assignments from my campus. (Well, for that campus part I'll update that one soon enough) And then as I was looking for my earphones at the middle of the mor-night, I stumbled with these notebook from my previous school, right before I continues my studies at my campus. Without any hesitations, I gone through all pages, smiling and sometimes giggling the doodles and nonsense words that I've wrote. But on that few last pages of my notebook, I was kinda shocked to see this particular notes that I've wrote. And then when it mentioned 27 July 2013, I was speechless for a moment and instantaneously knew that I wrote this to someone before... So, here it goes:

50 Confessions Why I Love Her =>

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1. First and foremost, I love her face.
2. Her smile, mesmerising yet sweet.
3. I love her stare like dang, her stare is like a laser! I can't see her eyes directly. (in short, I can't make an eye contact with her)
4. Trust me, every hairstyle is totally matching with her.
5. I always tell her that I love her each time we ended our conversations.
6. Owh yeah.... Every time I saw her, UNICORNS...
7. She's short, but that's fine. In Physics, what's opposite, attracts each other. Tall and short attracts... :)
8. She's unpredictable.... *laugh
9. She has so many stories to be told everytime...
10. Owh yeah! I love when she screamed excitedly my name whenever we had this looooooooong urgency to hear each other's voice.
11. She always follow up with the latest trends.
12. And by that, she would always commenting my appearance. (Well at least, I have my own sweet fashion critics.)
13. I love that looooooong conversations like two three hours of non-stop talking.
14. I love ( and annoyed as well) when she called her cat using my Bidayuh's name.
15. We both share common interest on animals: CATS!
16. Maroon 5, both of us love it!
17. I'm the drama-king and she's the drama-queen.
18. But unfortunately, her drama-queen skills are much more better than I am...
19. She loves to hear me singing, even through the phone.
20. On 6.45am-7.00am, there's a wake-up-call straight from her.
21. And with that wake-up-call, she always persuading me to wake up and saying good morning.
22. How I love when she said my voice was kinda sexy on early morning... XP (true fact, seriously)
23. She cares for me a lot. Like a lot.
24. She always asked what happened to me whenever she felt that I was somehow depressed, emo, etc...
25. I love her expressions when she's jealous. XP
26. And by that, I always persuade her not to get over-jealous over a small matter.
27. I love how she has her faith on me...
28. And I admire how she able to pull out the string after all of those gossips about us... (salute)
29. I love how she able to spend her times just to have a chat with me.
30. Chat till midnight? Count me in...!
31. I love how she laughed. Well, she laugh, I laugh! XD
32. Everytime we texting each other, it take about less than five minutes to receive the reply.
33. I love when she pronounced good morning, good night and even mor-night. Gosh, her voice is like a music in my head.
34. I love when we're about to tell that same words in the same time. Giggles found us after that.
35. I love when we're having a high-life, riddiciouslous conversations that makes us laugh everytime.
36. Love  when I express my frustrations towards her and seems that she's the only girl that knew and understand me the most.
37. Funny when both of us has the exact same model before - Nokia Asha QWERTYUIOP type.
38. I admire when she made a huge sacrifice that she might wanna leave her school and transfer to my previous school with me. Well, although it's a might, but I always admire her determinations.
39. I love when she felt soooooo sad when I'm about to go back to my hostel. Sad emoticons and her persuading voice just......err......... indescribeable.
40. Somehow in some of her status, it's about how she felt towards me.
41. I love when she she said "I frantically fall in love with @IAmDarrenJunior" in one of her tweets.
42. I absolutely love how she held my hand so tenderly, so soft on that 2nd May 2013, that somehow deep inside, I'm bursting in tears with that song 'Cambridge' from Kina Grannis as my background songs.
43. I love when we always going out together at Bintang Megamall, and all workers was like "OMG, it's that couple again..." XD
44. The moment when she shared a song called 'Just A Kiss' by Lady Antebellum and we had a duet on Skype, I felt I'm falling for her over and over again.
45. I always love her perserverance.
46. I remember when both of us asking how it is when we shared our future like any normal couple would do...
47. I love all of her reactions! Kinda childish, yet 'manja-manja'... XD
48. With or without glasses, she still an angel.
49. Deep down of what she didn't wanted me to do, I know for sure she did that for the benefits of me. Because she cared for me, just like any girl would do... :)
50. She had cried for me, not once but more than that. For me, that's the nicest and yet painful thing a girl can do to be, like for God's sake, how many girls could cried so hard, just because she likes, she cares and she loves that guy?

51. With this 50 confessions, for me there's seem so much ore than that. More than 50 reasons why I love you. And it seems indescribeable through words, or even anything. Something that cannot be said through words. And can you imagine this is just only about 6 months since our first met in about 5 years. Wonder if about next 5 years, 10 years or even for the rest of my life. Though we may be separated by situations, I know that someday, we maybe... Not maybe, but shall be meet again. And by that time, forever.

My name is Darren Junior, and this is my 50 Love Confessions to my Miss That-Special-Someone...

27.7.13

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Now, I don't really know whether I really had done this, but this update is the last update of 2013.

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2014 Resolution

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... Err... I don't planning for any intro, so lets just to the main idea, shall we?

2014 Resolution 

Since I'm so attached with my Facebook so much and there's another four three days left before 2013 closes, so I'm gonna do something a little bit drastic: FACEBOOK DEACTIVE!
Yes, and I had done it...
 Well, it's because I spent too much time Facebooking, and I think it's time to stretch out a bit, get some fresh air and stop facebooking. So stop asking where I am! (Just kidding) When will I active it? I don't really know. Maybe one two months from now...? IDK..

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Okay, so for this 2014 resolutions, I've made 5 important resolutions to be fulfilled on 2014. So here's the list:

1. GET 3.0 POINTER AND ABOVE.... Like it's schematic, right? Every university students would want those, right?

2. JOIN THE MMA FIGHTING CLUB, like at West Malaysia there, there ain't gonna be a safe walking out ther, right? Mugging, robbery, and even kidnapping is one of the most common things at there. So as a responsible guy, it would be an obligations to do necessary things to protect my own life, even when I had to give the strongest uppercut to them, and blow their groins till they screaming in agony and pain. Plus, I'm gonna make them submitted by headlock submissions till they cry out their babies off, if you know what I mean?

3. STAY SINGLE... Like friend-zoned, watching anime, and gaming all days?

4. FIND ANOTHER ONE (IF GOD WANTS IT TO BE)... like if I can't stand watching those couples show their PDA's (Public Display of Attractions, FYI) I'm gonna find one. Easy! (but I can't... But I can... I don't know?)

5. BE A YOUTUBER... 2014 is the year when I made a promise to myself that I'm gonna be a Youtuber, making a vlogging of myself and share it to everyone. I'm really thinking hard on what kind of videos should I made, and I got a lot of support from my friends and my families about it! So to simplify it, I'm gonna make the videos in which I see everything through my perspective. Like literally. Through my four-eyes perspective! Owh yeah, I might gonna make a covers, short serious videos and also some funny videos that anyone could ever think off...

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So, that's about it! My 2014 resolutions...

To all of my peeps, bloggers and everyone out there, I just wanna say thanks for your continuous supports following my Facebook, Twitter and this blog updates, and I can't express how much it meaningful to me. And deep in the bottom of my heart, I just wanna say sorry if I ever mistreated you, ever hurt you from the inside out, and everything that I've done ever offended you. And I just wanna say, I'm sorry... (Pointing at my heart) I really am...

So peeps, bloggers, and everyone out there, HAVE A BLESSED CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR 2014 IN ADVANCE! May all those good memories from 2013 stay fresh in our minds and let 2014 be another good years for us, being crazy and yet sensible as we go to the next phase of life to come. So, cheers! :D...

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Let Me Stay Here...

"As expected, she had moved on... Though the weight of the world has befallen upon my shoulder, but I'm gonna happy to carry this burden with a fading smile on my face... XOXOD"

Guess I wasn't expecting this to be at this moment at all...

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Hey, peeps and bloggers.

Okay, so this might not gonna be the sweetest part in my life, but I've to type what I had to type. I'm officially gave up my hope on her. Who's 'her'? Which 'her' are you referring to? I just let that question to drifted away, let it be anyone's guess. But then, back to this blog update. How am I had gave up hopes after all the good things he had done to her? After countless chances I'd gave her, and yet the only end is always I'm expected: "Whether I'm the one who gave up hope, or she's the one who called it off..."

I don't really know how to explain this, but after all of this incident I'm inspired to compose a song actually. Maybe sooner or later, I'll post it on my Facebook or Youtube and looking forward for it. To Mea; since that day you knew my personal life, you had been my little listener and there's no one that could hear my thought as good as you... So when you knew that I'll compose this song, and you were asking for the lyric? Here it is...

Let Me Stay Here

It's funny when you expecting a miracles,

And when it's gone, you acted like there's nothing.

But who am I to be your miracle, when you can't feel the warmth.

The soft voice and the sweet touch of yours.

Faded by time,

In an endless time.

I knew, I knew, I knew,

This is it.

Cause when it's time to letting you go,

I promise I'll never let this go.

Memories when we used to be,

Cause I know when you asked me to step away, I don't.

So please just this once,

Let me stay here...

Shimmering my life, Giving me hope.

You're the one I thought I need,

For the rest of my life.

But when you went away from my own life,

Just to let you know,

You took my heart as well.

Faded by time,

In an endless time.

I knew, I knew, I knew,

This is it.

Cause when it's time to letting you go,

I promise I'll never let this go.

Memories when we used to be,

Cause I know when you asked me to step away, I don't.

So please just this once,

Let me stay here...

I'll be staying here, as your comfort zone,

Could give you another chance,

Just stay here with me, the next time you'll be here...

So that's it! A simple lyric, simple song, and maybe gonna edit and touch-up that lyric a bit, but I'll hope I could record it and post in soon enough... :) This is for you, Miss 'Her'-That-I-Mentioned... 

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Awksome Adventure?! - Angel Oh Angel...

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While I was sitting quietly in the car, I was quite stunned by myself... And then this image of a girl suddenly emerged from my head like a wind or lightning some sort... So, here it goes. Hope you enjoy... ^^

Angel oh Angel...

I was fifth grade and well, my best buddies, Sebastian got the best of me in getting more influences to Danielle, so I was quite a bit disappointed by that. So, I set a new course. Find and search another girl, and hopefully she would be my first love. (But then, crush is crush rite? Like them and yet forgotten) And here we go. I found another one, in a rather unpredictable place. Okay, here's the clue: It's a blessing by God... 

It was every Catholics fifth grader's dream to received their first Communion, and from there, we had to go through series of Sunday classes in order to fully understand what it's meant to be one of God's children, and from there, understanding how it's great and worth it to be one of God's follower. And then, one Sunday morning, me and Sebastian (we're at the same Sunday class) sitting at the same table, chatting and laughing while our Sunday school teacher taught something at the front. And then, my left vision was like there's a small flowers at the end of it. I was like, "What's happening to my vision?" (I wanted to swear, but you guys know that I'm learning about God. So, no swearing, Darren...) And then when I looked my left side, there she is: simply flawless... It's the situations when you looked at her and say, "Beautiful Christ, she's an angel..." *saliva dripping.... ewwww.....!!! Let's call her, Ivy

The next Sunday, I've made my homework. Trying to established an 'inside girl' to provide me information about her. Who she is? Where she's live? What's her favorite songs? Favorite movies? Color that she likes the most? etc etc... (At this point you might wanna call me a stalker, but everyone did right?). But there's one things that I can't do, and yet still haunts me till today. I CAN'T EVEN SPEAK TO HER FACE-TO-FACE! Girls, if you read this, you probably think I'm stupid, because guy was supposed to have a sense of brave and just admit his feelings to the girl that he likes, but I gotta tell you, girls. That's a hard things to do, even to admit his feelings to someone he likes... Really! Even for a guys standard, it's really a hard things to do...

Back to the stories, I kinda lost my voice whenever I wanna talk to her, and when I regained my voice, she's 1.5km away from where I'm standing. And I was cracked... and then cracked again.... and then, *sitting at the dark corner, duduk mencangkung, muram dengan api-api roh kat belakang saya. 

But then as time goes on, and my last class before first Communion started, I was lost in words, lost in my worlds. Wondering how am I supposed to go through this? Am I gonna be seeing with her again? Am I'll be missing her? Will I get the chance to be with her, even if I'll have only 1% of chances that I'm gonna be with her? I don't have one single idea about that...

And then when the time I don't really expect the most, she's gone........

And there goes my chance... *sigh
But then, one years later, when I'm attending my sister's first Communion, a figure showed up from afar. Long silk hair, sleeveless top, cream-coloured pants, and from her face, I was like OMG! She's there... That girl I had crush on last year! And there she is... There and waiting for me to take a move. But then, as I was plundering for some courage just to speak to her, she's gone... Again... And this time, it's forever.... As devastated I am that time, well thank God that another fragments of memories just flashing through my mind. Because as far as I'm concerned, if this happened, my life wouldn't be like this. I just knew that... 
And what I heard right now, she's currently studying somewhere at Selangor, a part-time model, and she had met Jimmy Choo. Yes that Jimmy who had designed some high-standard shoes... Weird huh? For me to have a crush on a future supermodel...

So, Ivy whether you read this, or not... (of course you don't read this) I just wanna say thank you... Thank you for not being my first girlfriend. For me to find another suitable one to be my first love. For me to show that from something that God has planned, there comes the possibilities to find someone who I might will spend fr the rest of my life... Thank you for that... :)

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So with that, all of my crushes I had telling you guys and bloggers before my first love come one years later... And that, my friend, is my Miss That-Special-Someone... But I can assure you. 'Awksome Adventure' will stay for you guys! So, goodnight...

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