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Well, it's 2.30 am in the morning, and here I am; sleepless and and still awake despite the cold, blurred, heavy eyes of mine begging me to take a rest, but then after all weeks of pain, suffering and tears physically and mentally, eventually what I thought is right is somehow not right for others.... Nah, just kidding... So in the dark, I woke up headed to my lappy, playing the song "All Of Me" by John Legend and "Second Chance" by Hillsong United; and writing this blog update. So, here we go:
Cause I'm Inspired...
It's been a tormenting testing weeks for me as I going through my days as a human. As DJ; and gladly my first semester is done, so I could proceed with holidays, yeay......!!!! But then, God might had challenged me something. So many tests that he had thrown to me, and I was like "Bring it on, God!" and I eventually succeed in it. But then, this came out...
As I was having a 'long-distance, vowed-to-each-other, always-missing-you, complicated relationship' with my Miss That-Special-Someone, I was grown too fond. Much too fond towards her (and hopefully the same with me over there) that I'm looking forward too meet her soon. So soon that somehow it drives me insane! (Nah, it's just a metaphor, but you get the point right?) And really I am looking forward for that. Okay that's the first part...
The second part is during my stay AND study at Johore here, I promised to myself that I'll gonna be making, creating and composing a song. And I did... "Let Me Stay Here" and "Perfect You" by myself, and I had to say I'm pretty impressed by it, even for an amateur. (Like I haven't mastered finger-plucking but I will, owh yeah!) And I ask for a more advanced guitar skill with my seniors, mastering a more advanced chords. That's one of the promises that I've made to myself...
But then as time passes and I became more focused on my works, assignments and project, accidentally my artworks became a beautiful artwork, that my friends and even my PA gave a praise on those artworks. Owh how glad I am when they told me like that... :3
During February, Valentine seasons, the month of Love and Serenity I was inspired to just love one another, and yes, Miss Queen? I just simply made her day, that I vowed to myself every Valentine I wanna spread the love, joy and happiness to just about everyone! And the chocolates, well call me old-fashion, but I still think that giving the chocolates mean that you wanna share the sweetness love could ever gave. And chocolates is the best choice to show it! : )
And now, only two weeks left before I'll be heading to Senai Airport, took my flight on 26 April 2014, across 30000 feet above sea level to Miri, Sarawak; I was pretty excited about it! *holding excitement... Miri, first thing I wanna do is to smell the scent of salty, modern scent of you! And I can't show what I've learned throughout my whole semester at Johore there!
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There must be some of you asking why did I writing what I've learned at Johore here? Aren't there anything else to say instead of only myself? And yeah, you got a point, but that's not what are we arguing about. There's one quotes: "Behind every man's success, there's a women at his back" (One of my favorites as well) and here's why:
Remember when I said that I'm trying to learned a more advanced guitar skill? Well, that's because I was so driven to play guitar with Miss That-Special-Someone in front of me. I was motivated when other girls was like, "A guy is way more cooler when he could play guitar, and best case scenario: serenade in front of her with the guitar", and so I tried my best to master the guitar skill till I had to bandages some of my finger because the day when I played for few hours, my fingers went numb with minor bleeding. But for me, it's worth it. The song "Let Me Stay Here" and "Perfect You", well that was inspired by you. By our relationships that we had made for awhile now... And I seriously hoped that you'll appreciate it, even when my strumming was kind of bad... Sorry about that. I'm working on that...
Artwork that I've done? Well to be honest, I'm inspired by her too! Her facial, her glace, her smile, and how we lived our days and nights everyday has inspires me to create a beautiful artwork, that for me, simply elegant, beautiful yet simple... Simply describes you. Remember how I once said this: Among the stars, beneath the sky, that's where we are? Well, I've created a Post-Impressionism artwork based on that. And that's what I once said to her, Miss That-Special-Someone... And it become everyone's talk of the day that time... And who am I inspired from? It's you Miss That-Special-Someone.
How about the Valentine last two months? Okay, the reasons why I made a vow to spread the love with one another is that I've inspired.... Yes, I've inspired by you, Miss That-Special-Someone. I still remember 14 February 2008 when you first accept me as your boyfriend even when I thought back, I might still a stranger to you. And yet you received me. I do think that maybe on that moment, I knew my life would changed to a whole different things, but maybe if you didn't received my proposal, maybe I'm not like this...
Yes, I've gone out with Miss Queen, celebrating Valentine with her, but hey? Valentine is the day where you literally want to spread love with one another, regardless of them as you see a stranger or not, well they do love love, right? So I'm inspired by her, Miss That-Special-Someone to made everyone's day that 14 February a lovely day, just because she once accepted me, even I'm a stranger that moment... : )
So am I excited to go back and see her once more? Heck yeah I am! I'm super excited to meet her, to have a non-stop chattering, the laser eye-to-eye moment, and just to show her like: Here I am, Miss That-Special-Someone. You inspired me to do what I thought I might get to think twice of. You inspired me to do a leap into something that I barely sure of, and yes I've done perfectly. You are the one who inspires me to be who I am, just because you want me that way, even there's the time when I wanted to changed, but then when I think back about how you loved me just because I'm like this, I decided to stay put...
So whether it's Miss Ivy, Miss Her-That-I-Mentioned, Miss Two-Guys-Girl, Miss Queen, Miss That-First-Crush etc etc, all I want is that simple Miss That-Special-Someone who always loved me the way I am and still, and I always adore to and hopefully wish to be by her side for the rest of my life... Amen....
I would like to quote this to Miss That-Special-Someone from a book 'The Inner Voice of Love' by Father Henri J.M. Nouwen: You carry your own beautiful, deeply loved self in your heart. You can and must hold to the truth of the love you were given and recognise that same love in others who see your goodness and loves you...
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So, that's all for this mor-night and gosh, I'm so into this blog updates that I didn't realised I've spend too much time writing this. So, for Miss That-Special-Someone, this is for you... All I wanna say that I appreciate, I cherished and I wanna say thank you for everything... Love you, miss you till the infinity and beyond! ;)
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(Gosh I should head back to sleep) Mornight, peeps... Bro-fist!
